When your significant other tells you the little things that you don’t even realize you do. You love hearing them and then realizing you do them, you like that they noticed. But a few days later you think what if we break up and you dated someone else and they notice? All I would think of is him. Like it was our thing. I would spiral down. My downfall would the smile I make after I kissed you. And the saddest part would be the fact that you would never see that smile again. But then I realize that we are together and we aren’t going to be apart. That’s the problem with me. I think and think and think but most of the time I cannot not dismiss that one thought. I’m getting better at it, dismissing the fears I have about life and relationships and it’s making me happy.
The fact that life can tear a connection apart and there is nothing you can do about it. Most of the time you don’t realize it’s happening. It’s hard to accept that it is happening. It’s not happening to me but my greatest fear is that it will when I least want it to and I’ll be left broken and helpless to fix myself up.